Creative Memoir: A Story of Creativity, Mysticism, and Magic

About the Book

Some people find God after tragedy. I found creativity. This memoir traces a journey from a painful childhood through psychedelic exploration to a moment of transcendence that changed everything, when creative practice replaced religion.

In this story, you’ll meet the trickster who introduced me to LSD, the desperate years chasing glimpses of truth through chemicals and mental exercises, and the mystical experience that illuminated new paths and showed me how every meaning I’d imposed on life was self-created, like art painted mindlessly that could be repainted with intent. It’s about learning that imagination isn’t escape—it’s how we shape our models of reality.

Author’s Statement

I went through a horrific tragedy as a child, and when I couldn’t find answers, I became self-destructive. But I was also searching for a better way. And slowly, I found it. It started with writing stories and little bits of music on guitar. Then I found martial arts and meditation. Then I found psychedelic chemicals and the means to reshape the narrative in my mind. Then it all came together as a path to real healing.

Some years back, my family was asked to sell our story. We could have used the money, but my mom said no. She said, “My son’s a writer, and if anybody’s going to write our story, it’s going to be him.” Those words have played in my mind ever since. I’m a fiction writer. I didn’t know anything about writing a memoir, and I’m uncomfortable with everything about it. I don’t like the vulnerability. I don’t like promoting myself. I don’t like revisiting those times, and I certainly didn’t want to dig deeper into those memories. Most of all, selling books about my family’s pain felt distasteful.

But now both of my parents are gone, and it haunts me that I didn’t write this while they were alive. Still, I want them to be remembered. I want the flaws in the legal system that caused so much of our suffering exposed. I think I have something real to say about grief and healing that might help others. And I truly believe that if I can encourage any amount of creativity from others, whether it’s in the pursuit of expanding minds, affecting change, or solving problems, then I’ll have left a positive mark on the world. And that’s what we all want, right?

Publication Updates

This book is in development. The draft has been finished, and it’s currently being revised.

Creative Memoir: A Story of Creativity, Magic, and Mysticism is expected to release in 2026. Follow me for updates on progress and sneak peeks.